Saturday, August 29, 2009
Good morning world!!! Haha. I just woke up...fell very sleepy as well. Today going to Perak again. Go visit my cousins which is my mummy's side! Not fun...LOL. =] I feel like going to my bed and sleep again...zzzzzzz. I am having high fever...*sad*. Good for me huh??? I have nothing to say in this post. Got to go. BYE!!!
Love,
Felicia Tan =]
what we could have been, 6:45 PM.
Hey...yesterday night was FUN, AWESOME!!! Haha...i drank 3 cups of beer and my cheeks were red and my cousins stop me from drinking them...=[ (You guys are so evil...but nvm). I know it is bad to drink and also it bring bad sign to yourself...LOL. (I have the pic which my cheeks were red! But I am not posing them...cause at that time they were tickling me...=.=)
And the good news was....WHAT?!? You guess and see...3..2...1!!! *BANG* Time's up!! Now, I tell u! It is....I got 3rd for singing competition!!!! Whee!!! Can you believe that?? Haha...the whole party ends around 3 smthg in the morning! I was really really tired at that time.
Went up to my bed and just sleep...like a PIG!! Haha...he din online now! Just now send him message din reply! What is happening to him??? Maybe he os too tired till lazy wanna on his computer i guess...anyway rest yea...don't stress yourself! =)
My current favourite song is "Say It Isn't So". I might be old song but I love it!
Skies are dark it's time for rain
Final call you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
Ten to five atleast we tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I never found you
How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on
Miles and miles to go before I can say,
Before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh, darling oh
I got miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again
The song actually touches my heart...hehe. That's all for today. Bye. Love you.
P/S: I love him!!! =)
P/S: I love all my cousins...*muakss* ;)
Love,
Felicia Tan =]
what we could have been, 6:58 AM.
Friday, August 28, 2009
YAY!!!! My cousins are coming! And we are having "Singing Competition". I am going to sing "When You're Gone" by Avril Lavigne. Wish me luck yea...=]. He is not replying me..=.= Don't know where he go d...After tuition 10pm, straight going grandma's house...YAY!!
I also wonder am I lucky to be the only girl among all my cousins??? Am I lucky??? Haha...gonna have 8 kisses tonight on my check...eww!! Nevermind I am use to it...I mean 8 kisses from them...haha.
Planned to wear white dress. High heels maybe. Not sure. Wearing that to tuition very "Mah Huan". RIGHT??? Holidays gonna end soon...*happy**jumping up and down*. I miss my classmates and my friends and also teachers so much!!! It has been 2 weeks. =[
Everyday rain only...haih. No fun. Rain rain go away...come again another day............i don't know d. These few days very cold...have to wear jacket. =[ Oh ya! Yesterday night was fun...i was shivering...1 blanket also not enough...so I went to my mum's room and took hers without her knowing. The next morning, she says...
Mummy : Yesterday night, I lost my blanket. Don't know where it goes???
Me : *laughs*
Mummy : What u laughing?
Me : I...*laughs*
Mummy : What I...?
Me : I took it...without u knowing it.
Mummy : Ohh...*laughs*
Daddy : U naughty har?
Me : No la...
It was fun...lol. Ok till here for this post...BYE!!! Love you!
Love,
Felicia Tan =]
what we could have been, 1:26 AM.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
RAWR!!!
Blow a kiss for you!!! *MUAKS*
I LOVE MY TEDDY, just like how I LOVE YOU!!!
HEY, people!!!
BLUEK!!!
O.O look pretty gurl!!! *joking*
Haha...HEY!!! Hot guy is over there...LOOK!
That's all for today.
Love,
Felicia Tan =]
what we could have been, 2:54 AM.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Today i am quite happy...but I don't know why? Is it because my crush didn't online or something??? *wondering* This morning I woke up, 9 something then I study till 12.30pm. After that went out for hair cut.
During me at the salon :
Bareber : So what hair style do u wanna cut?
Mummy : Maybe u cut it short for her.
Barber : SHORT?!? No..ur gurl don't suit short hair. *smile*
Mummy : Ok la...then u trim her hair la.
Barber : Ok.
Mummy went out of the salon. Then i chat with the barber.
Me : Thanks! I don't want to cut short as you know.
Barber : YEA! I know. I help you ma.
Me : Oh ya!! I want to straighten my hair. Is it ok?
Barber : Straighten your hair ah? Ok also. It suits u.
Me : Then u know what u should do la...
Barber : Ha na...Ha...na. Tell your mummy ma.
Me : Yes!!! Smart also har.
Barber : SHHHH!!! your mummy coming in d...
Me : Ok.
Mummy : So u trim her hair la ya.
Barber : Ok...but I think your girl should straighten her hair.
Mummy : Straighten? AIYO!!! No need la.
Barber : Not expensive la.
Mummy : Not about the money.
Barber : But...it suits ur girl la.
Mummy : Is it? Ok lo. I bring her here again this November. Then u do for her la.
Barber : Must make appointment one yoe know.
Mummy : I know.
Barber smiled at me. I smiled back at the barber. After finish trimming my hair, we went for our lunch at Pulau Tikus. We ate "Char Koay Teow". Sometimes I think how Pulau Tikus got its name??? Do you guys know? I guess maybe last time the island had lots of rats there that's why it is named as "Pulau Tikus." Hahaha....
He is still not online. Nevermind. I can live without HIM!!!
Ok. Till here. TOODLES!!!
Love,
Felicia Tan =]
what we could have been, 2:22 AM.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Today someone propose to me...but i rejected..so sorry!!! I don't mean to hurt you...i hope you understand. It is because I have a crush on someone else...but the crush isn't you. What I can say is just a word "SORRY". =)
Advice for you : There's lots of girl of there...so go hunt...hehe.
I guess you don't know who is my crush! Am I right? Haha...have been chatting with him lately...as the day pass...my feeling for him is getting more. Should I stop chatting wif him or continue chatting with him?
What love actually mean??? Does he know I have a crush on him??? I have nothing to say in this post...just want to keep it to myself...I will try to stop myself from loving you.
A Million Words
Would Not Bring You Back,
I Know Because I've Tried.
Neither Would A Million Tears,
I Know Because I've Cried.
When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat
But Later That Beat Could Mean
A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted
On Something I Knew I Could Never Have
My Heart Was Taken By You,
Broken By You And Now Is In Pieces Because Of You
Of all the words of tongue or pen,
the saddest are those...
it might have been.
Who do you turn to when the only person
who can stop you from crying
is the one who is making you cry?
I understand that with loves comes pain,
but why did i have to love so much?
The worst feeling in the world is
giving all the love you have
and knowing it will never be returned.
Its hard to pretend you love
someone when you don't
but its harder to pretend that
you don't love someone when you really do.
Have you ever noticed that
the worst way to miss someone
is when they are right beside you
and you can never have them?
I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast,
because every time I fall in love
it never seems to last.
There are times when
I cant decide whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I dont want to see you
because everytime I do,
the fact that you dont see me
the way that I see you hurts me even more ...
The weirdest thing happened the other morning...
I woke up with tears in my eyes...
and one rolling down my cheek...
and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again!
and you can never have them?
I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast,
because every time I fall in love
it never seems to last.
There are times when
I cant decide whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I dont want to see you
because everytime I do,
the fact that you dont see me
the way that I see you hurts me even more ...
The weirdest thing happened the other morning...
I woke up with tears in my eyes...
and one rolling down my cheek...
and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again!
I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do,
I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do,
I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.
what we could have been, 1:55 AM.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Today I went Tesco with my parents and saw Jason. He was with his parents or maybe grandparents. I guess...I didn't call him. Cause was scared. Haha...
I sing this song all day long...don't know why. But I love this Song :
Knock You Down by Keri Hilson
Heh.. not again..
Ohh.. this ain't supposed to happen to me..
[Kanye West]
Keep rockin', and keep knockin'
Whether you Louis Vouiton-ed up or Reebok-in'
You see the hate, that they servin' on a platter
So what we gon' have - desert or disaster?
[Keri Hilson]
I never thought I'd.. be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
And you came in.. and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm in a race
But I already won first place
I never thought I'd.. fall for you as hard as I did
(as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' about our life a house and kids (yeah)
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down.. knocked me down
[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
[Ne-Yo]
I never thought
I'd hear myself say (ooh)
Ya'll gon head
I think I'm gonna kick it with my girl today (kick it with my girl today)
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high (flyin' high)
Til I met this pretty little missle, that shot me out the sky (ohhh shot me out the sky)
(hey) So now l'm crash it, I don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could go back, make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss independent (to the fullest),the load no never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet, that ended that life,
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
(Girl sometimes love)
[Keri Hilson]
[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
[Kanye West]
Tell me now can you make it past your caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams to
Seem to only date the head of football teams
And I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin'
We, were never meant to be baby we just happen
So please, don't mess up the trick.. hey young world I'm the new slick rick
They say I move too quick, but we cannot let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes
Let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
I could of got his ass, someone that's only average
For advice
O.M.G, you listen to that, bitch?
Whoa it's me
Baby this is tragic
Cause we had it, we was magic
I was flyin', now I'm crashin'
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, Ima ask him
[Keri Hilson]
So I gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
Oh will you bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoaa, whoaaa
I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoaa, whoaaa
And if it hits better make it worth the fall
(When it comes around)
[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(when love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down)
Won't see it coming when it happens
But when it happens, you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
See when love comes and knocks you down
Won't see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
See when love comes and knocks you down...yea..
what we could have been, 3:14 AM.
Friday, August 14, 2009
After school which is 12.30pm, Kelly's mum fetch Kelly and I to her house to bath. After bathing at about 1 something we were ready. So Kelly's dad fetch us to Gurney. When we reach Gurney, Kelly called Jia Wei to meet us at MPH.
And this is the first time I see Jia Wei. So they planned to have lunch together. But in the end we didn't take our lunch. And straight go to Marina Bay. We went to Jia Wei's house. While Jia Wei was having his bath, Me and Kelly was looking at his book to see his writting. After that, we did our Geografi together. *coughcough*
At about 5 only we walked back to Gurney and bought 1 New York Chicken and 2 Mashed Potato. Altogether were RM 9.90. Hehe. I still remember.
Then my dad called me and said he had reached. So i waved to Kelly and Jia Wei and said "BYE BYE."
This post is very short...but I hope to go Gurney wif Kelly and Jia Wei again. Enjoy myself that day. =) That's all for today. Toodles.
Love,
Felicia TAN :]
what we could have been, 9:50 PM.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Woke up this morning...i went to wake my mum up... but i can't find for her and even my dad. I thought they went out for breakfast or something... so I didn't call them. I went online... and chat with my friends. After that about 10 something, i decided to take a bath. After bathing, my mum and dad haven't come back. I stsrted to get worried. So i called my mum...she didn't pick up the phone...I called her twice...she din even pick up. After 5 minutes, she called me back.
GUESS WHAT!
She said i send your dad to the hospital...i was shocked...I cn't even controlled myself. And i was burst into tears. At about 11 something, my mum came back...and said "Go pack dad's clothes. He's going to stay there till this Monday". She said she have to wash clothes and then hang the clothes only she fetch me to visit my dad. So i ask her "What about my Math tuition today?" She said "I will call your teacher and say you can't attend tuition today." and i said "OK."
At about 2 something, we went to the hospital. When i reach there, my dad was sleeping. So, I didn't want to wake him up. So i took out my storybook and read at a corner. I didn't know what my mum did. She woke my dad up. So i said "HI!!" to my dad. Then he said "HI!!".
He sit up and said while crying. He said "I was afraid this morning. I scared I wouldn't have the chance to see you again. I don't dare to sleep last night. I scared i couldn't wake up.". When I heard that, I cried and went to him and hug him. After dad, a nurse came in and said "Tonight I will give u two medicine for u.". Theni said "Excuse me, can you give my dad sleeping pills too?". Then the nurse said "OK". My dad interupted and said "After I eat the sleeping pill, When will I wake up?". Then the nurse said "It depends.". My dad straight say NO!!!. I stared at him. He said "I don't wanna take sleeping pills la. Scared cannot wake up.". Then I told the nurse "Ok. nevern=mind then. Since he doesn't want to take sleeping pills"
I spend time with him until 8 something. So he said you and mum have to go back already. Late already. Then before we left, my mum hug him and he cried. I know why. It is because he don't want to sleep alone there. He is scared. So I told him "Dad, everything's going to be alright. Don't worry".
And tomorow I am gonna send to my grandmother's house!!! Cause mum is going to Bali tomorow. And this Friday I am going to Marina Bay with my darling, Kelly. Haha...ok I think that's all for today. TOODLES!!!
P/S : Dad get well soon. I love you FOREVER!!!
Love,
Felicia Tan. =)
what we could have been, 6:42 AM.
