Yesterday night, I sat on my bed. Out of the sudden, I ask myself lots of question. Why suddenly I think of you?

• Am I still in your heart?
• Will you leave me alone?
• Do you still love me?
• Do you think of me every night like you use to?
• Will you fight till the end for me if one day someone likes me?
• Will you support me all the way?
• Will you love me like you always do?
• Will I going to be your first and last one?
• Will you still fall for other girls?
• Will you protect me if someone bully me?

I can't figure out the answer! I still need you. I need your shoulder now for me to cry on. I love you. I am really sorry for what I have done to you previously.

Love,
Felicia Tan =|

Today no meeting and also no tuition. Replacement will be tomorow (1/11/2009) from 8.00a.m to 9.45a.m. After tuition, I guess my family will be going out for breakfast then after that, we will be going Gurney! YAY! Tomorow, I am going Gurney. Anyone going Gurney tomorow? If you guys going remember to say "HI" if you guys see me, yea! REMEMBER! xD

This few days, I have been busy with meetings. TRAPLEX meetings! Anyway, I did attend all the meetings! WHEE!!! Break record le...hahaha. I don't think so I waste my time on meetings! Actually, I went there to have fun and also get to know new people! That's fun! I get to know my new UL which is *drum rolls* OOI KAI XIAN!!! Hahahaha...other than him, I get to know Ronald, Kevin Lee, Kah Heng, Julian, Damien, Ryan and lots more. I lazy want to type you guys name la. Hahaha...alright. I just want to ask you guys whether "Does smoking helps you guys to lose tension and also stress???". It's not like I want to try them. I just want to give you guys advice that smoking is BAD! I know it is hard for you guys to smoke smoking now! Maybe you guys should make yourself a target or a date where you guys have to stop smoking! LOL

Why am I telling you all this? Errrggghhh....I am quite bored now! I just want meeting NOW! Currently, I am addicted with the song "Tick Tock" by Kesha and also "3" by Britney Spears! It's all because of the dance! Hahahaha....=) And suddenly, I just can't stop laughing! It's all because of you! Mr. Benjamin! I am so gonna kill you one day!

That's all for today people! Bye.

Love,
Felicia Tan xD

Hey! How are you people out there? I hope everyone is healthy and happy! LOL
Don't be like me! Hahaha...Benjamin, you know my new password right? So...shhhhh! HAHAHA

Tuition for BM and English has end d. Will be continue next year! 2010 =.= I am gonna miss all of you! Hahaha...i am going meeting soon! YAY!!! That's all for today! And stop calling me to blog please! I am busy...really busy! GOSH! Please understand me!

Love,
Felicia Tan =)

I feel meeting is the best! I can have lots of fun with my senior and also my junior! You guys are great. Seriously! I hope everyday we have meetings! 365 days! Then it is gonna be fun! And I really hope we can win for this upcoming camp! We must and have to win! Must have confident on ourselves! Let's do our best! I know we can right, girls and boys? HAHAHA....

While having meeting, we also have jokes to from our "Ah Ma"! My "Ah Ma" is Mei Chern. LOL. I love you all more than anything else! =)

We rocks! Don't you think? Hahaha....okay. We will be having meeting tomorow again! Whee!!! Dance, dance, dance! YAY!!!

That's all for today. BYE! I love you guys especially my unit 1 members!

Love,
Felicia Tan =)

I know that it has been a long time since I last blog! I am really busy lately! And I am happy to be busy seriously because I am busy with my meeting. And I have LOTS of fun there! Not just stay at home to online only! Hahahaha....alright! And I also felt that me myslef had change! Especially my attitude! I become more bitchy! Hahaha...no la! Joking! That's all for today! And I hope my unit will win for this upcoming camp! Which is Traplex! Go!! =]

Whee!!! He meet me today in school! And seriously today is the happiest day in my life! Even my friend said you are a good guy cause you can come all the way to my school to meet me! Not like their boyfriend! Hahaha....I am happy happy happy! LOL

And I can't believe I can even skip my recess and also my lunch! Hahaha...I am still full right now even today morning I only eat one "karipap". Tonight got tuition! Ishhh....today I brought 7 bucks to school. 1 buck, I gave to Michelle to buy "Kit Kat", another 1 buck to pay the "Hari Pahlawan", 5 bucks for Kelly to buy food! Hahaha....now I "pok kai" d! "Mei You Chen Liao" (Mandarin) Hehehe...nevermind actually.

Luckily, we didn't get caught from any teachers! We are lucky today! First time, I see you! You are sooooo......quiet! Until my friend keep on telling me to talk to you. Dear, you're too quiet d. Are you that kind of person (quiet quiet mia)???? Hope not! LOL.

Tomorow go school, die d la! Sure perli till "gai gai" d. Haha....and did you notice that my forehead and neck was hot at that time! And I was having flu (not serious la). And I am really sorry if I left you alone just now! Cause I was really nervous! Hehehe....Actually after 2.30p.m., I told my friend I am nervous. She check my heart beat la and touch my hand! My hand was sooooo cold at that time! She beat my hand and said "Don't scared la!!!"Hahaha....anyway, I really enjoy it! And, do remember the date 21.10.2009 It is a special date for both of us! Very special! =] And I am very fat right???? =)

That's all for today. Bye

P.S: I love you, dear! =]

Love,
Felicia Tan =)

I am happy today in school cause I could finally hear your voice! Haha...your voice is HAWT!!! LOL...most of the time you talk to Kelly. Haha...Kelly, my darling! And my darling is not online now! Call her to online, pula didn't online! Hahaha....and sorry Kelly, I slap you today! Twice! I know it is pain cause I slap very hard!!! Hahaha....don't tell Jia Wei (Jagung/Corn). Later he come fond me pula...then I die!

And I feel you loving me lesser and lesser after day by day! GOSH!!! Why am I thinking like that??? I have that feeling that you started not loving me anymore! I want you! And you don't want me!!!! Arrggghhhh!

I wouldn't give up, till you're mine! But, I would give up sometimes! And I really feel like giving up actually. And my friend always tell me not to give up, not to give, not to give up!!! Maybe GOD wants me to give up on you. I think I will think about this tonight whether to give up or not. Today is my last decision...I will think about it! And to all my friends, don't advice me already! I am really tired of this! I don't want to continue! I feel like dying right now!

Okay. Till here for today! Can't wait for "Rimup" this Friday! Gonna wear tradisional clothes! Wheeee!!!! With high heels I guess! LOL...alright people! Bye!

Should I type here I love you??? I don't know!

Love,
Felicia Tan =|

I am back! Currently, listenin the song " Down" by Jay Sean feat Lil' Wayne. It is nice...you guys should listen to it. If you haven't listen to it before! Suddenly, I don't know what to blog! ADUI!!! Think...think...think! Seriously, my mind is blank! Urrggghhhh! Fcuk me!

Suddenly, Lee Leng wanna quit CATC pula! How la? Fcuk me! Really pissed me off right now! What should I do??? I am not talking about you, Lee Leng! Maybe because I didn't stayback or something! Now everything's too late d!

Love,
Felicia Tan =[

Hey, people! I am back from Kelantan! Miss me??? HAHA...I have some pics for you guys to see...so I hope you guys will enjoy! I have one pic that you guys will really love it! Want to see??? No regret after look-ing pic...seriously!

Morning, people!!! I am going to push off soon! I am here just to say GOODBYE!!!

I am too bored right now...I don't know where have you been??? Say want to online tapi din online! *dissapointed*....

Anyway people, this is gonna be the last post before I go Kelantan tomorow! I know you guys gonna miss me!!!!!!!!!!!!! *PERASAN* Alright! My next post will be all about my trip to Kelantan...and I hope I will have lots of pics to blog as well! See ada mood ir not to take pics la...hehe. So....school teacher which is my Science teacher is gonna start Form 3 Science after Deepavali!!!! And I have to go study d! Hehe...my friends and I can't wait for Chapter 4!!! You know what's about! LOL...I am not that........OKAY!!!!

Today got tuition!!! SCIENCE!!!! ALAMAK!! I don't feel like going actually...but I have to! =[ I actually want to spend the whole afternnon to chat with you mia...cause I scared tomorow I can't chat with you d...and until now I haven't go top-up yet! I am really dead...tonight tuition. After tuition shops are close! MUMMY, help me! GOSH!!!

And now, I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...................BORED!!!! Freaking bored! *sing sing sing dance dance dance* Alright now, I "ki siao" d. Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala.....boomboomboomboomboomboom....
pangpangpangpang
.....piangpiangpiangpiangpiangpiang....
dumdumdumdumdum....tingtingtingtingtingting....tangtangtang

Alright, I better go now! Before I myself go spam my own bloggy!!! HEHE...byeeee!!!!
Muakxxxxx!!!! =)

*yawn*

They haven't go back yet. Still staying at my house! Tak tau buat apa? But then it is fun to have you guys here...=) Tomorow going Kleantan...just now ask mum what shoes to wear tomorow. And she said " High heels". GOSH!! I don't feel like wearing them! =[

Nevermind bring another shoes there in case my legs are pain. Go there sure eat and eat and eat. HAHA...

Morning! Wake up at 8.30 in the morning! Then go brush teeth after that make coffee and Milo for mummy and daddy and also my friends! All of them are still sleeping at that time. Yesterday night, I slept at 2 something and wake up at 8.30! TIRED!!!! Still have to practice later on! YAY!!

I am so bored right now! Haven't eat yet just drank a cup of Milo...but full already! It is already 10.31 right now! They wake up d...waiting for them to bath!!! Don't know take how long!! ISHH...didn't drink yesterday night...u know what I mean by drink...something la! KUAI right? HAHA....tomorow going to Kelantan d...YAY!!! *I can't wait to see you koko!!*

Today somemore not going to Tesco! How to top-up le??? Later in the afternoon, wanna go jalan outside pi beli d! You guys have to follow me! Hehe...I don't care! Okay, now what should I continue....errr.....errr....err.....errrr......errrrr......!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know la! Till here first la! To be continue later in the afternoon...sure very angry post later. Cause I have to walk outside to buy credit!!! The weather is so HOT!!! Don't want to get sunburn!!!1 =( And I hate to take umbrella as well! XD Okay got to go liao! They are calling me! Buh-Bye!!!

Love,
Felicia Tan ='(

Today is my HAPPIEST DAY in my whole life! But maybe there's something more happy that is coming soon!!! Anyway thank you, GOD!!! I love you!

Today is the day I spend the most time chatting with you! And I am really happy and enjoy every second we were chatting. As the day pass, My love for you is getting more! And you know what?!!? The name that start with "F" and end with "A"...I knew who she is! But just that I keep on deny! But actually I know who she is! And when I read your blog...the poem "Care". I am seriously touched with the background music as well! *Heart melted* I am happy that you're that romantic! Maybe more romantic, i want! I am waitingggg!!!!!!

I am happy to have you whenever I am feeling down! No matter what happens to me, I will try not to tell you. It is because I don't to see you sad, having sleepless night and worry about me! I don't want this! All I want is to see you happy ALL THE TIME. Seeing you smilling makes me want to smile! Seeing you sad makes me sad! So obviously you want to see me happy and also smilling. So I planned not to tell you anything that makes you sad....having sleepless night and LOTS more.

Actually I want to tell you, but will you promise me not to worry about me??? But eventhough you promise me, I am scared you will break the promise...is not I don't trust you! NO!!! I don't mean that! I want you to be happy all the time because I care for you! All my ex boyfriend are not as good as you...all of them are bustard! Some of them are player, and some just take you as their girlfriend for fun! I really hope I won't be cheated by you like how they did to me! I hope you love me sincerely. That's all I want! I don't want anything! I just want you to love me...and love me for the one and only in your heart.

Okay, that's all for you today!

I got to go now, people! Chat tonight! Miss you all!
GOODBYE!!!!

Love,
Felicia Tan =)

The day I am waiting for...has not happen until now! Haha...I have to be patient! LOL

Yesterday tuition, I sat in between two guys! AND they keep on bullying me! Pinch here and there la, perli me la and lots more! Raymond and Derrick, you both wait la!!! NEXT WEEK!!! I have to plan first what should I do with u both...I will call the other guys to attack u both!!! *evil laugh*

Haha...evil me hor??? No, la...i good wan! *Perasan*

For you:

He finally gave in to his friend's girlfriend when she said "there's someone you should meet",
At a crowded restaurant way cross town, he waited impatiently,
When she walked in, their eyes met,
And they both stared
Right there and then,
Everyone else disappeared, but....

One boy, one girl,
Two hearts beating wildly,
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight.

He smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away,
This was the day they'd been waiting for all their lives.

For a moment the whole world,
Revolved around one boy, and one girl.

In no time at all, they were standing there in the front of a little church,
Among their friends and family, repeating those sacred words.

The preacher said "son, kiss your bride",
And he raised her veil,
Like the night they met,
Time just stood still, for
He was holding her hand when the doctor looked up and grinned,
"Congratulations, twins"!!

One boy, one girl,
Two hearts beating wildly,
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight.

He smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away,
This was the day they'd been waiting for all their lives,
And for a moment the whole world,
Revolved around one boy, and one girl.

Love,
Felicia Tan =] (The One who Love You ALWAYS!!!)

You're not online till now!!! =[[[[[[[[[[[[[
I guess tonight we wouldn't have the chance to chat! Maybe tomorow morning or afternoon la...GOODBYE!

My best friend gave me the best advice, He said each day's a gift and not a given right, Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind, And try to take the path less traveled by, That first step you take is the longest stride.

If today was my last day, and tomorrow was too late, Could I say goodbye to yesterday?, Would I live each moment like your last?, Leave old pictures in the past, Donate every dime you have?,
If today was my last day.

Against the grain should be a way of life,What's worth the prize is always worth the fight, Every second counts 'cause there's no second try, So live like you'll never live it twice, Don't take the free ride in your own life.

If today was my last day, and tomorrow was too late, Could I say goodbye to yesterday?, Would you live each moment like your last?, Leave old pictures in the past,Donate every dime you have?, Would you call old friends you never see?, Reminisce of memories, Would you forgive your enemies?, Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?, Swear up and down to God above, That I finally fall in love, If today was my last day.

If today was my last day, Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?, You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars, Regardless of who you are, So do whatever it takes,
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life, Let nothin' stand in your way,
Cause the hands of time are never on your side.

If today was my last day, and tomorrow was too late, Could I say goodbye to yesterday?.

Would you live each moment like your last?, Leave old pictures in the past, Donate every dime you have?, Would you call old friends you never see?, Reminisce of memories, Would you forgive your enemies?, Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? ,Swear up and down to God above ,
That I finally fall in love , If today was my last day.

Love,
Felicia Tan =[

Yesterday night, I was really emo! When I was on my bed, I strated crying...until 11++ p.m then I stop myself from crying! Lying on the bed for like 1 1/2 hours then fall asleep till I woke up the next morning. And I have a good news from school today which is....I GOT 31 / 40 FOR MY BM objective paper!!!! WHEEE!!!! Happy for ME right??? LOL. =D

I am so sleepy right now! Wanna sleep la...but don't want! HAHA!!! I am going Kelantan this Friday until next Monday! To meet my brother there!! AND I am not going to school tomorow (15.10.2009)...skipping school! Cause go school also no use la! Nothing to do! BUT i planned already...Wake up late a bit, then packed my clothes that I wanna bring to Kelantan, then online, then hang out, then online!!!! HAHA....

This is for you:

Actually you didn'y hurt me...or maybe I am stubborn or something! YES! I am stubborn sometimes but now...I don't really know what I am thinking...I feel like giving up on you! And sometimes, I tell myself not to give up on you! What do I really want??? And I want to apologize for yesterday night for being EMO and also let u had a sleepless and nigh and also worry about me!

I am really "paiseh"! SERIOUSLY! It is like after your examination (PMR), you have to worry this and that....and lots of stuff la...I hope I wasn't born into this world! But I am born into this world! WHY???

That's all for today people! Goodbye!!!

P.S: I am sorry for everything!

I am just so bored! Cause I don't know where is he right now??? MISSING HIM...SERIOUSLY MISSING HIM!

Hey! It has been a long time since I last blog! You know what people! Exams are over!!! *dancing*
Lol...I have been studying lately, didn't blog d...Lots of things happen as well. Bad and also good! And now, I really don't know what to blog! ERRR...I am looking forward for this Thursday...because he MIGHT be coming to my school!! I really hope you can come.

And today exam, during civics paper, my ICT teacher was giving answer to all of us! Some of my friend ask teacher a few question, and she just give us the answer straight a way! How unbelievable!!!! And that time, there's a dicipline teacher teacher next door! AND my classmates were quite noisy as well! HAHA...

This song is specially dedicated to you: SWEET DREAMS by Beyonce

I am sorry for not picking up your call that day! These few days I am having sleepless night thinking about you...I miss you so much! I hope I can just hug you tight right now and wouldn't let go! I need you right now!

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